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Crawling To Mount Zion

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As I completed my study in 1 Samuel I thought of the main things that I learned through this historical book that contained the end of an era and the beginning of another in the nation of Israel. There were three main topics that the Lord focused in on me as I studied each week:

  1. The character of God
  2. Prayer
  3. Obedience

The three are all related to one another and depend on one another. When we begin to understand the character of God we will see our lives change in the area of prayer and obedience. We will go through seasons in this life that are flat out difficult and we might find it hard to pray… even feel it is a vain pursuit, but that is a lie. When we understand the character of God it makes it a lie easier to defeat.

We might go through times when we are being instructed in a way that doesn’t make sense to us, and God will call us to trust and obey. There will come times in life when we will question our “need” for obedience and what exactly obeying looks like in our present situation. Knowing the character of God will help us make the right decision.

As I thought on all that the Lord has been teaching me and reminding me of through this time in His Word, I wrote this poem:

Crawling To Mount Zion

My God You are good

My soul knows this very well

At times my heart deceives me

Tries to make me doubt that You are there

Yet only so far will You allow the lie to go

You never cease to reach and touch me through Your Word

Your truth never fails to open blinded eyes

Your light penetrates the places where darkness tries to hide

When this world makes us weary

When this life makes us weep

Your grace never fails completely sufficient to be

Your mercies new each morning do renew our strength

Your everlasting lovingkindness help us when we’re deplete

My eyes lift up and look to the glory that I know

If I have to crawl on bloody hands and bleeding knees

To Mount Zion I will go

To Your cross my sweet Jesus

To my Savior and my Lord

You endured great hate and persevered until death

So I shall keep crawling until I breathe my last breathe

Though the world thought it over in truth it just began

For the grave could not hold You, death was not the end

What looked like defeat was victory finally won

Hope is fulfilled for those that trust in the Son

It was finished and begun all in one event

Though this world bring me trouble

Though fallen mankind bring me pain

Though the prince of darkness bid me, come his way

Though this flesh try and tempt me to deny Your sweet name

No weapon formed against me can prosper

For I am hidden in Your grace

My soul in despair might fall from time to time

Yet hope in You my Father will always see I rise

To God be the glory for You are good indeed

I will trust in Your Word and by it let You lead

Not to the left nor to the right shall I ever turn

For Your truth lights my path and I will not be detoured

I am looking for Your promise to my home away from here

And while I travel onward I will trust You through my fear

My prayers I will offer as Your face I do seek

Knowing that You hear me and Your arms are not too short to reach

Whether I stand tall and strong or am crawling small and weak

I know that You are with me and my purpose You will see complete

 

 

Courage

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I wrote this poem for my mother and put it on this picture that my youngest daughter drew two years ago when our family began a walk into the hardest journey that our Lord has ever placed us on. I share it today for anyone else who needs to remember that the Lord is with you and that in Him you have all the courage that you need to face whatever is before you.

Courage

Crossing into a season that one never expected to see
Opens doors of fear and doubt that were hidden within the
soul deep
Under this life’s trials and tribulations one can easily
crumble beneath
Raise me up my Jesus and gift me with Your strength
Amaze me with Your grace that You promised sufficient to be
Ground me in Your Word, let Your Holy Spirit speak
Everlasting Father, Mighty God, and Prince of Peace…
my Wonderful Counselor, my courage for today I ask You to be

~ nlhv

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My God I Come To Thee

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It’s been a really long time since I wrote any poetry. This past month my husband and I had an opportunity to sneak away for a few days to the beach and as I sat on a quiet, uncrowded, chilly beach I, for the first time in a while, wrote out a poem to my God…

My God I come to Thee

To lift my hands and sing.

My voice I do raise

That my tongue might give Thee praise.

Wholly I surrender to Thy own will and way

Knowing Thou art good and holy is Thy name.

Thy justice I can trust

When I am hurt by deeds unrighteous.

Thy mercy I can find

When the world has crushed my mind.

When my heart and soul feels faint

I know that Thou art still my strength.

When the winds and waves crash round

I know that the Rock on which I stand shall never let me drown.

Thy unchanging love which never fails me not

Shall hold me steady still when I forget what Thou hath taught.

Thy own faithfulness carries me when I am found faithless.

Thy righteousness covers me when exposed by flesh’s weakness.

When tears fill my eyes and no words can I find

Thy Spirit gently comes and guards me like a lion.

He utters and He groans with the voice of my unknowns

For He knows how to pray when all my words are gone.

When sins effect has wounded in depths no man can reach

Thy hand my God is able to heal the hurts so deep.

Thy Son who came and lived on earth to sympathize

Understands the pain of here and does not condemn me in my cries.

I adore Thee. I adore Thee. My God Thee I adore.

I thank Thee and I praise Thee for all that Thou restore.

By Thy cross, not hell, not death, nor any scheme of man

Has power to ever stop Thy will or Thy plan.

Although I cannot always see

In this valley of the shadow so deep

I hear Thy word tell me that my sight I do not need.

By faith I take each step

Trusting in all Thy promises that Thou has already kept.

Knowing that Thou art good and this life is not the end.

For by the blood of Thy Son Thou has called me friend.

So into Thy loving hands my soul I do commit.

I am bought by Thee and at Thy feet I sit.

My ear is leaning in to hear what Thou wouldst speak.

My hands and feet are Thine to use as Thou see fit.

When you walk though a season like my family is currently traveling through you deal with every emotion known to the heart. I have never felt the depth of hurt that I have in the past couple of years. My faith was shattered and shook in and from all directions. I saw ugly things that have changed me forever. There are people that I will never see the same this side of eternity.

There are words in my heart that I so desire to speak, yet I stay silent as I wait upon the Lord. I have learned that I could and probably can forgive anything, but I cannot restore until someone sees the need to seek that forgiveness. It’s a whole new depth to the gospel that I have come to understand. There is a difference in knowing someone has the ability to forgive and actually coming to that someone and asking for that forgiveness. However, I have learned that in this it is okay to shake the dust off my feet and leave that to my God. I am not obligated to carry that burden.

You see THAT is what it means to forgive. In Matthew 6:15,

But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions.

The word forgive is aphiémi and it means I send away, release, remit, forgive. It also means to lay aside, leave, let go, omit, to depart from one and leave him to himself, so that all mutual claims are abandoned, to leave, go away from one; to depart from anyone, to give up a thing to one.

Sometimes to forgive is to simply let go and walk away. To forgive is to simply give up the hurt to God and let Him deal with it. He alone knows what is going on in the heart. He alone knows the motive, so it’s safe to release our pain to Him and trust Him to make it right in His time. 

Today is the first day of the last month of the year. This month we remember the day that God kept a promise that He made way back when sin made its first ugly stain.

And between your seed and her seed… Genesis 3:15

The need for forgiveness has its beginning way back there in the garden. Our God was the first to extend the forgiveness He asks us to extend. He never asks of us what He is not willing to do Himself.

Hope

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Hope

He alone provides our peace
Opens our hearts, gives light to our eyes
Patiently He calls, awaits our pause
Engaging us here in the depths of our souls

Hear is voice so still so sweet
On bended knee hear Him speak
Praise His name with lips of thanks
Enter His gates with feet of dance

Hope in Him for our God is great
Order your steps to walk in His ways
Prove His Word with each step of faith
Exalt His name for His wondrous grace

Happy are all who call on His name
Our joy is full our sins erased
Placed as far as the east from west
Eternally secure in Christ is our rest

Hills may come yet even mountains flee
Ordered by Him obey even the wind and sea
Picture Him now in His glorious light
Ever sovereign on His brides behalf He fights

How beautiful my Savior- why in we He delights
Often we fail Him yet He softens His eyes
Purposed are we to be conformed into Him
Engraved on His heart to finish what He begins

Help is found in trusting His Word
Obedience to Him is the fruit He seeks
Pleasing to Him is the surrender to His will
Everlasting lovingkindness in Him be still

~ NLHV

Adventskranz 1. Advent

I Wait

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I bow before You, I lay at Your feet
My dear Saviour to my ears do speak
Fill my heart with Your heart
Consume my spirit with Your Own
May the cares of this world fade to black
And might I into Your arms collapse

Breathe Your breath upon me
Surround me in the warmth of Your breeze
Like the wind, is Your Spirit
Oh Father blow upon me
Cover me fully by the strength of Your hands
Lift me up by Your arm that before You I might stand

Wash me clean by the washing of Your word
Purify me with hyssup dipped in the ashes of the heifer
May the praise of my lips and the offerings of my heart
Be as a soothing aroma to You that by my sins we not be apart
I wait for You Lord, my Father I wait
Oh how I long, so long, to behold Your face

Forgive my iniquity, the trespasses of Your law
I cling to Your promises, I cling to Your cross
Oh Father I desire to do Your will
I lay my life down and before You I am still
I know that I am nothing more than dust
So into Your hands I place all my trust

Your love is everlasting and Your compassion knows no bounds
Your mercies are ever enduring may the trumpet over the burnt offerings and peace offerings sound
Might I be reminded that You are the Lord my God
And as You live all the earth will be filled with Your glory
As Your glory filled the tabernacle at the bottom of Sinai
Fill me with Your glory until upon my face You shine

You are my God, it is the glory of Your name I seek
That every tribe, every tongue, every nation would bow at Your feet
I am but a jar of clay, nothing of myself
You are my potter and I rest upon Your shelf
If Your presence does not go with me, then do not move me from my place
But if You go, I’ll go, toward Your will I’ll set my face
But now, just now, I seek and I wait…

 

 

I wrote this in February 2008 while studying through the book of Deuteronomy..

Glory, Hallelujah, Praises to His Name

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I wrote this after studying through the book of the Romans several years ago… 

In Christ alone my hope’s secure
No fear is found, my future is sure
Once a fool, believing a lie
Walking in ignorance, yet professing to be wise
Once a slave to my lust
And a deceitful heart I could not trust
Was once filled with filth and hid in the dark
Until I turned toward the Light and righteousness my God by faith did impart
I tried on my own to keep all the rules
On the outside played along I knew what was approved
My life adjusted to the crowd I was in
A different face, different character for family and friend
I knew what was right, knew what was true
I just couldn’t get it, but could point a finger at you
Oh but of this struggle I grew weary and tired
And finally my God to Your Christ I did cry
My Jesus I had been told that You had died for me
Bore my sins on that cross atop of Calvary
Your blood had been poured out and spear pierced Your side
But I heard the grave could not hold You and up You did rise
I was told that You were promised from long ago
And then I searched the Scriptures and I saw that it was so
From Adam to Noah to Job to Abraham
My Jesus You were promised the Savior of all man
From Isaac to Jacob to Judah to Moses spread the fame of Your name
My God Your kingdom would come and was promised forever to reign
Through David, Isaiah, Jeremiah, through all the prophets You spoke
You told us of the One that one day all eyes will behold
And at the right time, my Jesus, while helpless in our sin
You died for all the ungodly who seek to be free and desire to live
Through one man’s disobedience all mankind did fall
Sin came, death reigned, and spread through the world, spread to all
Yet through One Man’s obedience, One Man’s righteous act
Sin was cleansed, death defeated, those who will believe no longer are under wrath
Before God justified by faith in His Christ
Grace obtained, and in my heart God’s love poured in, His hope now I have
I rejoice in everything, whether good, whether bad
Knowing He is with me and all has passed through His hands
Saved from well-deserved wrath, once dead now alive
An enemy before, now in Christ reconciled
Glory, Hallelujah, praise to Your name
Glory, Hallelujah, thank You Jesus for the sacrifice made
Glory, Hallelujah, worthy are You the Lamb who was slain
Glory, Hallelujah, because of Christ my sin God forgave
Glory, Hallelujah, in Christ I am free, no longer am I sin’s slave
Glory, Hallelujah, my Jesus You are King and in my life You shall reign
Glory, Hallelujah, all praises to Your name

The Dance

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Lost in thought, lost in His eyes,
Dreaming of the day I’ll throw off this disguise
Watching the clouds drift slowly by
Listening and watching for my Knight to arrive
Drifting away from the weight of this world
Eagerly anticipating my freedom unfurled
Oh to dance with my arms open wide
Singing and shouting to the Love of my life
To twirl and to trust as a child understands
To walk in a faith that is able to move mountains
To swim in a sea of forgiveness freely gave
To be firmly established upon the Rock that never caves
Throw off all inhibitions, all chains destroyed
No cords encompassed, no locks on the door
Cast all cares away, all fears to the depths
No burdens bore, no worries felt

Oh this world how captivating it is
The serpant’s a charmer he does persist
Forsake he says, forsake your first love
Forget His voice, ignore His shove
No need to give all, what you’ve gave is enough
Your His, you are, no need to fanatically rush
Stay a while enjoy this place, after all life is short
No need for these pleasures for you to abort
Isn’t God good, doesn’t He want happiness
Then come says the serpant, with me dance
I’ll twirl you and spin you and give you a high
Keep your eyes on my world for soon enough you will die
Come fill your plate with the things of this world
Don’t you know when you go these will be no more
No regrets I promise after all would I lie
Would he lie? Would he lie? I ask you twice.

Forsake? No! Forsake my first love ?
My Savior, my Life, draw me unto You from above.
Fill me anew, afresh from Your heart
Pour down Your Spirit, Your truth do impart
Flood my mind and my soul with Your joy abound
Make me drunk with Your passion, I am Your renown
I shall shout I shall sing I shall declare Your praise
Lift high, lift high, Thy banner I raise
I run this race, I shall run till the end
For Jesus, my Lord, has also callen me friend
I love You I do, I love You so
My Jesus teach me, into Your image might me You mold
Into your hands I fall, into your arms I rest
Encompass me Father, let me inhale Your breath
Fill my lungs with Your life, my mouth with Your song
Oh my Father, it is here, in You that forever I belong

 

written May 2009…

Stand

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“If you fall down in a land of peace, 
How will you do in the thicket of the Jordan?” 
Jeremiah 12:5

 

If I fall in a land of peace
If I crumble in the face of the free
How shall I stand in a day of battle
How shall I reign victorious over my enemy

If I can not stand at attention in obedience to my call
When there is no war raging have I ever stood at all.
If I can not live the truth in the protection of this peace
Then how shall I fare when a weapon of hate is pulled on me

If I stumble in this day of priviledged liberty
Will I stand when shackles for the gospel are placed on me
If I shrink back at the fear of the loss of approval of man
If my life is threatened how shall I believe I could stand

If I fall in a land of peace
How will I do in the thicket of the war
If I can not stand strong against an enemy already defeated
How shall I win against an enemy that is still yet to come

If I truly am a soldier enlisted and secured
If I lay down and sleep in the hour of still
If I put up my armor and remove my shoes
If I take off my helmet and lay down my shield
If my breastplate is placed on a shelf
My sword sheaved and dicarded
I am already defeated though the battle be not started

The day of peace is not for leisure
The time of freedom is not for play
The hour is for training so that I will not be ashamed
So whether in the thicket of the Jordan or safe in Jerusalem’s walls
I shall stand, stand firm, by Your grace never shall I fall.

I wrote this in November 2009…

My Kinsman Redeemer Lives

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I was looking through old journals this morning trying to find a letter that was written several years ago that will be shared about in a later post… but as I searched I found a couple of poems I had written. I wrote this one after studying through the book of Ruth. I thought this one fit this Easter season. I also added a Poetry category to my blog, so if you enjoy reading poetry, you can easily find them.

Here is the Easter Poem. Worship with me… or maybe you read this and maybe just maybe… you are led to cry out to this Beautiful Redeemer to be saved.

My Jesus, my Savior, my Friend

In complete awe of You I stand

To know that You Creator and Lord

Rich beyond measure, willingly became poor

You left the majesty of heaven, Your glory behind

To become flesh and blood, to live and to die

You looked down from Your throne and my chains You did see

I was a slave to sin, in bondage, in death, unable to be free

I was sold for nothing to a stranger in this land

Owned by one who ruled with a deceptive, evil, heavy hand

He kept me in shackles and blinded me with his lies

Surrounded me with darkness, convinced me that in shame I should hide

But You in Your infinite mercy and grace

With love beyond measure left your heavenly place

I needed a redeemer and this You did know

I needed a blood relative willing and able to purchase my soul

You fully God and fully Divine

Became fully Man to become a relative of mine

God in the flesh and on earth You did dwell

You humbled Yourself in the likeness of man to know how I felt

You saw my depravity and experienced temptation all for my sake

With a heart beating and lungs breathing You were willing my place to take

You in Your holiness never did fall and You became able to pay the price for us all

The price was high for my master was sin

I was deep in debt my life blood dead and dying within

For the wages of sin is death, and eternal destination to fire

I needed forgiveness, I needed life for my life, this alone I could not acquire

Without the shedding of blood there is no remission of sin

But not just any blood, but precious blood, blood not stained within

You, my Jesus, the Christ, the living Son of God

The Word made flesh became obedient to death, even death on a cross

You became my Kinsman so my Redeemer You might be

You gave Your life for my life, took my sin upon Yourself

Committed Your Spirit to the Father and said, “It is finished”

Yet You being perfect having no sin of Your Own

The grave could not keep You nor could death keep its hold

Three days passed and out of the tomb You came

The Living Risen Christ, my Redeemer, forever to reign

The free gift of salvation through redemption by Your blood

Offered to all who will believe, and receive, and obey just as You showed

I love You my Jesus for I was purchased by Your blood

You are my Redeemer, You live, therefore I live, free from sins great hold 

 

 

I Am My Beloved’s

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“I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine,

He who pastures his flock among the lilies.”

Song of Solomon 6:3

 

I am my Beloved’s and my Beloved is mine
I am covered and protected
I am special in His eyes
I am lovely
I am beautiful
I am chosen by His hand
He holds me
He knows me
And still by my side He stands
He leads me through the waters
He guides me through the lands
He carries me through the wilderness
He never lets me down
I can trust in my Beloved
For His promises He keeps
He is faithful to me always
In Him my heart finds peace

I call to my Beloved
He answers with a voice both strong and sweet

He says, “I hear you My beloved
I have all that you’ll ever need.
I’ll never leave you nor forsake you
I’ll never degrade you when I speak
I’ll never hurt you or curse you
I’ll never bring you grief
I am here to love you
I am here to make you Mine
I am here to lift you up
And beloved the pleasure is all Mine
I see all of your potential
I see all that you can be
You were created to be special
Oh beloved, you were created just for Me
You were created because I loved you even before the world began
Oh My beloved, you are because I AM.”

 

(inspired and written in Sept 2004 when studying the Song of Solomon while teaching Sex According To God,)

O how He loves us!

Will we love Him in return?