The last six months I have spent the majority of my mornings wondering what in the world God was doing with me. Actually I have spent much of the last couple of years with my mouth gaped open in a “Really? You have got to be kiddin me” kind of way.

There are things I have experienced that have changed the way I see things and the way I see several others and there is nothing I can do about that but allow the Spirit of God to help me process it and extract the precious from the worthless. I suppose that’s just all part of growing up… and learning to grow up with eyes wide open and yet keeping a clean and pure heart that is not tainted or stained with bitterness or left jaded and untrusting.

Over and over again these past few months my Jesus has been whispering in my ear… “Do you trust Me?” 

 

 

There are some things that we just can’t figure out and we just can’t fix. Simply put, some things just flat out are none of our business. God lets us know and understand what He wants to and what He doesn’t He just says… Trust Me.

If I told you where my family was at right now… and the battles we are fighting. You would probably feel sorry for us. And truthfully speaking I have had the temptations the last few days to succumb to this looming oppressive spirit of self-pity and doubt but this morning as I opened the Word of God and in my heart begged God to speak to these ears that have felt almost deaf to His voice these past many months… My Jesus was faithful.

The Lord also will be a stronghold for the oppressed,
A stronghold in times of trouble;
And those who know Your name will put their trust in You,
For You, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You.

Psalm 9:9-10

I know His name. I know many of His names. I know that He is Jehovah. I know that He is El Shaddai. I know that He is El Roi. I know that He is El Elyon. I know that He is Jehovah Shammah. I know that He is Jehovah Nissi. I know that He is Jehovah Jireh. I know that He is Jehovah Sabaoth. I know that He is Jehovah Rapha. I know that He is Jehovah Shalom.

I know His name!

Therefore, yes, I put my trust in Him. So I am shaking off this looming self-pity and doubting spirit of oppression and shouting, “Get behind me Satan!” I have work to do…

I must PRAISE MY GOD!

Sing praises to the Lord, who dwells in Zion;
Declare among the peoples His deeds.

Psalm 9:11

Every trial just gives me more reason to praise Him. Every attack just gives me more reason to declare His deeds. Every unforeseen moment just gives me more reason to lean harder into Him. Every thing that happens that seems to confuse the path of this woman just gives me more reason to seek Him. Every time of internal turmoil and outer chaos just gives me more reason to find a time to be still before Him. Every single attempt to cloud this mind and deceive this heart is one more kick in the britches to cause me to run harder and faster toward my Jesus.

For here is the thing… what I know, that I know, that I know… is that if I know His name and for all those that I know that know His name… there is no such thing as loss.

But whatever things were gain to me, those things I have counted as loss for the sake of Christ. More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ, and may be found in Him…

Philippians 3:7-9

 

So my Jesus… to answer Your question…

Yes.

I. Trust. YOU.