Today is 12-12-12 and it’s also my 36th birthday… It’s amazing what you can learn in 36 years. I have made a lot of mistakes… I mean a lot. I have said and done things that I wish I would have never done. I have so many things I would go back and change if I could… but I never can. Once a choice is made it is made.
How thankful I am that I am loved by a Redeeming God.
The past can’t be changed.
But the past can be redeemed.
He has redeemed my soul from going to the pit,
And my life shall see the light.
Job 33:28
But now, thus says the LORD, your Creator, O Jacob,
And He who formed you, O Israel,
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name; you are Mine!
Isaiah 43:1
When I think of all He has redeemed me of and from and when I think of the life He has given me… this life He has allowed me… this humble opportunity to attempt to bring Him glory with this crazy red-headed Spirit-filled body of mine that wars with flesh and hormones and emotions but desires with all my heart to walk in obedience to His Word and spread the gospel of Christ and the amazing grace that saved a wretch like me… I can’t help but be filled with praise and thanksgiving and this strange combination of undeserved righteousness and unworthy godliness that brings me to my knees as I think upon my sinful flesh but yanks my head up and lifts my eyes up on the beauty of His cross that causes me to stand to my feet and stand clothed not in shame but in His holiness…
This thing I’ve got going on with my Jesus… it’s amazing.
I know that I will never see another 12/12/12 and I will never turn 36 again… but the truth is I am not promised that I will see the clock strike 12:12 again either. So I must choose to walk as a wise woman, making the most of my time. Living each day like there is no tomorrow… because today I am alive.
Today I have an amazing husband that I grow more in love with each day.
Today I have beautiful daughters that I am so grateful to call mine.
Today I have a family, a huge extended family, that loves the LORD and loves me.
Today I have a church that I am beyond blessed to be allowed to serve.
I don’t deserve any of this…