I was in the middle of reading a book by Beth Moore… and I was in to it. I mean taking notes and posting quotes IN TO it…
It is indeed a great book, but as I was reading I get to this point where she talks about being locked away in a cabin in the woods all alone while everyone else is taking care of all her responsibilities back home while she writes her little heart away… and well it just put a bad taste in my mouth.
Thou Shalt Not Covet
Everything I have ever written is in the midst of the chaos of life…
Yes those are little legs running circles around me and I am sitting in the middle of the room with my kids, and my kids’ friends, and their lunch and toys and clothes… this is definitely not a cabin up in the mountains out in the middle of nowhere.
<sigh goes here>
Yesterday while my girls were working on their school work all sprawled out on the living room floor, I was helping them with school while working on the Bible study handouts I was making on Romans 11 for my kids in Children’s Church. I had a song that had been on my mind for a few days now and I really wanted to listen to it… The song was only 4 minutes and 20 seconds long. Surely I could stick my earbuds in and drift away for 4 minutes and 20 seconds. Right?
I tried for over an hour to listen to this 4 minute and 20 second song… Never making it more than 45 seconds in before someone was needing me for something… Or just wanted to tell me a story about something.Finally in desperation, I asked for my girls to please give me just 4 minutes and 20 seconds… that’s all I need. Just 4 minutes and 20 seconds…
After the third interruption after my plea I gave up. It wasn’t going to happen. The name “Momma” could not go that long without being uttered out of one of my kids mouth. This is my life…
I surrendered and looked at my girls and said… “You just can’t do it can you?” But this time I actually chose to smile and pulled out my ear buds and got down in the floor and helped one child research the Spanish Armada and helped the other learn how to convert ratios and use the property of proportions.
I am my girls mother, teacher, and Children’s Minister. They are with me twenty-four seven… and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Yes it makes writing Bible studies and blog post difficult… but I will have plenty of time to do that when they are out on there own.
Not only that, but I don’t know if they will have me tomorrow. None of us are promised tomorrow… So I guess I will sacrifice as many 4 minutes and 20 seconds that I have to and try to never forget that I will never have yesterday again. Today becomes yesterday really really really fast.