Worry… Why Do I Let Myself Worry

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Praise the Lord!
For it is good to sing praises to our God;

Psalm 147:1

There are days when the thought of worrying about anything seems really a futile thing… then there are days when I realize that I have been worrying like crazy and didn’t even realize it because the worry is more like a trickling stream hidden in the deep crevices of an underground cave. This morning I awoke and as I began down the steps my mind immediately went to asking the Lord why…

Why are there those that live their lives purposely hurting others and they appear to skip through life unscathed and then their are those who are so very loved and seek to live their lives not for their own sake but for the sake of others and then one day they awake to find their lives under attack.

We can look at Psalm 73 and other places in the Scriptures and find that we have been asking God all the “why’s” of life for generations…

As I was walking down the stairs I so badly wanted to have a temper tantrum fit with my Heavenly Father… but He simply would not let me. I hear Him whisper every so gently in my heart…

 young lady, you are too big for that and you know better

<insert deep breathe and sigh here>

So I made my coffee and prepared my morning sugar and carb fix and sat down at my desk and immediately the words, It is well… began to sing in my head.

Yes Lord, I know. It is well with my Daddy’s soul.

I know. 

I do.

I know it is well with my soul… but that doesn’t make this present time any less scary for us.

Then I felt Him lift my eyes to the calendar on the wall. I noticed today’s date and my Jesus said, Psalm 147.

Have you ever just wanted to roll your eyes at God in that head-shaking-smiling-okay-I-get-it kind of way? I do quite often, especially when I let myself worry and He gently reminds me that worry profits nothing and besides have I forgotten that He is the One who counts the stars and gives names to each of them. Have I forgotten that He’s the One who provides rain for the earth and makes the grass grow on the mountains. Have I forgotten that He’s the One that makes sure the smallest sparrow and the largest has their food. Have I forgotten that He’s the One that causes the wind to blow and the waters to flow.

I have spent that last thirty minutes reading and re-reading Psalm 146, Psalm 147Psalm 148, and Psalm 149 and so just as in the Psalm of Asaph (Psalm 73) I find myself once again at rest in His strong sovereign arms of mercy and grace and I pray that those who are facing similar fears are able to find their way there as well.

When my heart was embittered
And I was pierced within,
Then I was senseless and ignorant;
I was like a beast before You.
Nevertheless I am continually with You;
You have taken hold of my right hand.
With Your counsel You will guide me,
And afterward receive me to glory.

Whom have I in heaven but You?
And besides You, I desire nothing on earth.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Psalm 73:21-26

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